It hurts so much to have to talk to you all the time and get so used to having you around to just have you completely ignoring me like i meant nothing to you… i really dont understand it at all… why did you have to talk to me in the way that you did.? Why did you flirt with me? Why did you play around with my feelings knowing the fact that i told you i had feelings for you? Why… it just doesnt make sense. You hurt me so much. And i just dont think you understand that…. ),: Its sad. Becuhs no one understands how much i care. You dont understand how i feel. Caring and putting in alot of effort for one person will never be enough for you will it?

Wow. Only you would do that to me. Becuhs you have too much of a temper to control your stupid ass actions. We were only talking about the date and just becuhs your old and you “forgot” i said friday and not thursday doesnt mean that you have to go and get mad and hit me. WHAT KIND OF MOTHER ARE YOU?! Fucking shit youre so annoying. I hate that we’re not close. I hate the fact that you always bring me down. I hate the fact that im always trying my best to keep you fuckn happy but NO thats not enough for you! Gawddddd…. you make my life evn more complicated. I honestly think i would do so much better with out you. And the only reason i would do when im older is get the fuck away from you. YOU MAKE ME SO MAD….. you arent even a good role model. You are and never will be a great impact to my life. I hate you so much. I honestly think that if you were more appreciative towards me then mayb i wouldnt be such a disappointment like you say i am and listen to you more often…… fuck i hate youuuuuuuu.

You’re such a good guy. You’re funny, energenic, outgoing, independent, you have an amazing personality and you’re soooooooo NICE. I would have never figured that youd make bad desicions. And knowing me i wouldnt be the type to judge peoples past mistakes. But to make it over and over again? Idunno. So much happened. And you were just that type of person you get me attached then leave me hanging once i gained feelings for you. I never would have guessed you were like that… i hate myself for missing you when i know i shouldnt. Everyone keeps telling me that i deserve better but no one would give that to me. I just wished you would have told me in the very beginning that you had feelings for someone else than tell me in the end when i completely started caring for you and have all these emotions towards you that just didnt even matter in the end…. i hate myself for crying over someone who doesnt realize that they actually have something good.. i dont understand… why me..